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First House Journal |
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First House Journal |
My first House runs from Jan 16th until March 1st. My first house is always a time of real transitions -- endings and beginnings can overlap but that's largely because there is a 45 day period to account for.
Pisces Australis - Virgo Decanate of Capricorn
Pisces Australis is the southern fish who drinks from the flow coming out of the urn of Aquarius. This Virgo decanate of Capricorn ruled by Mercury can be skilled at putting higher concepts and principles into practice for the benefit of all. Hard work and executive ability make good managers. When higher ideals and imaginative solutions are applied, valuable development can occur. The keyword is IDEALISM.
If the Lord of ascendant (Saturn) occupies the ninth house in the horoscope of a person, he has numerous friends, is friendly towards the scholar, is humble, famous and full of radiance. 1982 - Life is completely topsy-turvy. My husband is saying he wants a divorce. We've somewhat worked through it but I think the damage has been done. We've started counseling but I'm so angry and betrayed I can't see straight.
1985 - This really was the quite before the storm. Life looked fine on the outside but wasn't good on the inside. I think I knew that my marriage was falling about and that there wouldn't be any saving it. By March 8th - just days after this house it was all shattered.
1986 - Trying to reconstruct this period is difficult. There are no journal entries. I think that this was a time right before all the changes started. By the end of the year I would have broken my engagement, changed jobs and ended up waling down a very slippery slope that almost ruined my life. I think at this time it was just one foot in front of the other and trying to stay sane.
This was the start of the Hermit or 9 year. Maybe that accounts for why I wrote so little. What strikes me from the perspective of hind sight is that the hermit ruled for almost 2 years and then things started letting go. The way these years felt I'd have said they were Tower years as opposed to hermit years
1987 - crazy time - I'm recovering form surgery and my life is going to hell in a hand basket.
1988 - Things are busy and hectic. The company is growing so fast I can barely keep up. Personal life is still highly dysfunctional still on again off again with the crazy person-- no relief and no salvation.
This year begins a 10 year cycle that will only occur once in my life. I'm not at all sure I'm comfortable with the thought of this period of time. It feels to soft and too spacey to suit me.
1989 - Went to Mexico for a week and am trying to figure out what to do with a relationship that is dominating and destroying my life and then the answer arrived in the person of my brother. Didn't know that all it was going to take was having him tell AD to leave me alone. Sometimes the Goddess does answer prayers. Busy with the church and developing classes
6 Feb 1989 - year of the earth snake - "traditional, trusty, is motivated by rationality, unrelenting and dependable".
The year of the Snake: is a somewhat changeable year, filled with preparation, contemplation and much reflection. Often breakthroughs are made but achieved in silence.
or on the lighter side
During the year of the snake it can be difficult to think of Libra as having a vice at all. The symbol for Libra is the scales, symbol of harmony and balance. But Libras, all composure on the outside, within are hollow and tormented. They may rant and preach about something noble, but their real philosophy is that if someone is nice to them, for heaven's sake, everything's all right.
Interesting that in some ways this was an earth snake year - Job situation was terrific but I had money in the bank and a healthy supportive relationship.
This is the first occurrence of my soul card the empress
Those English Tweeds and solid oxford shoes, which have served the traditional Capricorn so well for so many years, are now found at the back of the closet. The "New Cap" emerged in 1989 when Uranus entered the sign to overturn the applecart and lead Cap out of the austere structure they carved for themselves in stone. Today, Capricorns are more easy going, exploring metaphysics and beginning to trust in something other than the tangible. You're a much less austere person than Capricorns of the past. You still like structure and form but you're starting to recognize the freedom that can be had when you move beyond Saturn's self imposed structure. Before telescopes, we could not see beyond Saturn in the sky with the naked eye. That was it....that was the end of our universe. But then we developed telescopes and our worlds opened to a new dimension. That's what Capricorns are doing now; moving beyond the world they've created and seeing a vast universe at their finger tips
1990 - Completely wrapped up with the audit. Life is stable today -- won't be so in the future since I'll be leaving in Feb but its stable today. I'll probably do the tax season so even that means I know what I'll be doing every day.
1991 - I know things are going to be changing shortly. I had a dream that I wouldn't be staying with the company once we moved to our new facility and I'm afraid that my dream is prophetic. It's been a tough assignment - I've never really felt like I've been comfortable.
1992 - Moved into the office with the rest of the folks instead of working from the house. Don't know if it's an improvement or not. Things aren't really great
1993 - Stable as instability can get. Working with the docs and putting one foot in front of the other.
1994 This is a strange time. I'm wrapping up the last two years of my life and closing down the office. I'll also moved to the east coast. It is also an ending of any illusions I might have had that a relationship would ever be more than its always been. I'm actually fine with that -- It was foreordained but still its a significant transition. EG actually drove me to the airport and I spend a week with TH while I waited for my furniture to make its journey across the US. I'm more rootless than I've ever been but I'm sure that the move is what is right.
1995 - The job I've been hoping for has finally materialized. A whole new situation is always nerve wracking but I'm where I am suppose to be.
1996 - Finished up the work we began last year, and started with a new organization and a new expanded scope. Actually a pretty stable time at work I know everybody I'm working with and I like them. Biggest change was finding a new apartment and moving closer to work. Massive improvement in my quality of life. Also working on two papers that we're going to present at a conference next October. This is a big deal to me and something that I think will end up being very significant in my life.
The wheel of fortune definitely turned positive. We're finishing up the project sooner that any of us would like but looks like I'll see have a job on another project which is a good thing, since I've been happy here.
1997 -
During the week of January 19-26 luck is on your side. A cycle of new developments with a more positive outlook now begins. Profound insights and important communication offers keys for this year's progress. Stay in touch with the process of unfolding, and enjoy the richness within each moment. Financial benefits and new methods to increase earning power are discussed and delivered. Progress is tangible, and your vision for the future is reinforced from January 20-24. The Aquarius/Leo Full Moon on February 23 increases the desire for pleasure and romance. Have a great weekend but don't postpone important projects. Spontaneity and self- discipline blend well.
The beginning of my Justice year - Started a new job -- just a three month contract but I have hopes that it might let me build a long term relationship with one or the other companies I'm working for at the moment. Also have met someone and that relationship seems to have real possibilities
The ruling i-ching for the year is 16 moving to 35
Jan 28 - The snow fairies were dancing outside my window last night; swirling and twirling in a hundred radiant colors. I had just gone to close my bedroom shade and they were performing in the light of my window. It's always a wonderful day when I can stop for a moment and see with the eyes of a child and know that it's the little people come to visit me and not simply light reflected off of ice crystals.
Watching the snow fairies made me think of the movie They Might Be Giants with George C. Scott and Joanne Woodward. I always remember his line "Thinking windmills are giants is madness but thinking they might be giants..."
1998 - Busy, busy. I've taken an assignment in education and we need to get something deliverable done. Seems people have been spending a lot of money and not producing anything. Not sure about my boss or my bosses boss but hey -- its only temporary and if I can do some good while I'm here so much the better.
1999 -Jan/Feb -
Not too much happening at the beginning of this house. Work situation was still in flux at the beginning of the period and then I got the best assignment I've had since I've been working with this company. With Capricorn on the ascendant I guess it's only normal that I define my persona my face to the world as being what I do for a living.
While the above paragraph is literally true I think it's important to add that this was simply a time of being in a holding pattern until the world could shift to move me back to a spot where I belonged and could function. I asked a lot of job and life centered questions at this time
Sunday Jan 17, 1999
Got an email from HJ commenting that he had read the material on my web site and noticed that I even referenced one of his articles. He invited me to join the emerging community focused on CAS. To say I felt honored is an understatement.
Question: My annual hexagram for 199964 moving to 35 - Progress
Question: If the opportunity with P** isn't right then what should I do?
9 Taming power of the small moving to 48 the Well
I have to admit this situation has me thrown for a loop. Everything is looking positive and yet the SO is negative. When do you let contrary advice influence reality. The key here is to not let anything queer things worse than they are in my current situation.
Question: can I make working for my current company work for me?
64 before completion - moving to 40 Deliverance
2000 - Moved to the West Coast -- started a new assignment
We closed on the house and WI moved all our stuff from one cost to another. This was a crazy time for me because it was both good and yet at the same time sowed the seeds for the ultimate end. I ended up picking up an assignment that no one else wanted and was really in my area anyway. I flew out to Detroit and met with the client and found out that they thought we were going to have a fully functional application by Feb or March. Bottom line was we hadn't even started. My boss said ok and did step in an help write the first part of the product strategy document (something I had never written before. It was also the defining event that let me finally be accepted by my team mates.
Uranus is in a waning trine to my sun. This is suppose to make change happen the easy way. Given all the little gotchas around our move to the west coast I wish someone would tell Uranus what easy is suppose to mean.
Found this quote for the year 2000. I liked the images
"Spend time crystallizing your intent. Do not feel that you must move all at once. Rather, set your intent clearly, and then watch as the doors begin to open. It is your responsibility now to walk through those doors as they open. It is yours to walk proudly in your own energy. It is your responsibility now to reflect that part of yourself which is divine. Begin in small increments if you wish, but do begin".
I'm definitely deciding to play to my strengths - we'll see if this is a good thing or a bad thing.
Interesting note. Pluto entered my 11th house on Jan 15th so my first house this years was the first taste of this new influence. It should be a time of transformative friendships. During the next 12 or so years Pluto will trine itself and Oppose Jupiter.
2001 - PE
Another new job and another new city. The first house flew by with too much time spent at work. January was also the start of the Snake year
SNAKE IN THE YEAR OF METAL/WHITE SNAKE
You will make wonderful progress in your work and professional life, and a lot of it is due not only to your skills and abilities but also to the moral and practical support you will get from your colleagues, friends and partner. And, what is more, you are going to enjoy it all at a much slower pace than the hectic recent months you'd had. As a result, it will be an excellent year for serious decision-making. Romantically, you will be able to strike a perfect balance between commitment and freedom and you can look forward to wonderful progress in your relationship, whether married or single. Some legal matters will need to be settled before the year is all that old, and a chat to an accountant or similar may be necessary. A word of warning: keep watch on your precious belongings!
2002
This wasn't really my best first house. Uncertainty in the job situation has opened up too many questions about who I really am and what I truly want to be. I've had a hard time getting focused and haven't really accomplished as much as I would have liked. Uranus is still transiting my first house so this may be a constant theme for a very long time. On the other hand I got a full time assignment that ended up paying me a very nice living.
2003
Busy this year than last but things might be slowing down. I'm really struck by the fact that my only memories of this period are dealing with work. Maybe I can change that for 2004
With a backward glance - I now realize that this was the start of my Chiron return (February 19)
Chiron is a lot like Pluto and he too wants you to get your act together.. Chiron is the ‘wounded healer’ of the zodiac and as such can trigger the ‘wound’ which then becomes your major teacher. Accepting the wound is what this planet is all about, accepting that you have a 'disability' and then letting it go to get on with life - learning to turn the disability into a strength. This ‘fundamental wound’ can be a disability such as short sightedness, hearing loss, a stutter, a big nose, acne, feelings of failure, fear of the dark, bed-wetting, an embarrassingly dysfunctional family, rape, abuse of all sorts, and the multitude of emotional burdens we carry from birth.
This is one transit that could open an emotional Pandora’s Box, however it is generally less severe and requires less therapy time than Pluto. Chiron can also cause physical illness through transit, often sparking an acute health crisis or surgery though these are usually not long term.
More backward glances... There is a concept in numerology called a maturity number but it's very unclear when it takes affect. I realize now (in 2007) that all the signs were there I just couldn't read them.
2004
I didn't really realize that Chiron would lay claim to an entire year (feb 03 to Feb 04). From October 03 on my life has been dominated by caring for my mother and in 2004 her dying. I don't have enough perspective on the situation at the moment but I'm struck by how much of a transition it is. When my father died in 1980 I was probably more relieved than anything. My mother's passing leaves me sorry that her dementia caused us to become so distant from each other (not that we were ever really close). What I'm struck by was that things started to tail down in my life last Feb and then appear to be coming back on track again this year though not with the potential zing I saw in 99, 00, 01, and 02
2004 Journal (details)
Interesting point of comparison between this time this year and this time 10 years ago. Ten years ago I was closing out a very strange chapter in my life and moving to a completely unknown life on a different coast. This year I'm closing out a part of my life with my mothers death and there are signs of incipient activity but nothing really seems to be moving. This is a nine year by calendar -- my last 9 year was 1995 but that was a good year either calendar or birthday to birthday -- this one doesn't seem to be comparable. much more the introverted stuck kind of feeling...
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