Went
to Lowe's to look for carpet -- they have a 20% off sale and we need to
get the downstairs and maybe the master bedroom done some time.
We've been talking about it since we finished painting the inside and that
was three years ago
Turns
out there's a tile store right next to the office -- we stopped in there
and found some sample we hope will work. Had an interesting
discussion with their decorator -- seems you can't put green tile in the
kitchen -- the green color comes for copper and the copper will always
react with common kitchen chemicals like lemon juice and vinegar
Hadn't
planned on going into the office but NJ called and said ME had questions
so I decided I'd better come in. When I got there everyone had left
for lunch. I spent the late morning and early afternoon at work
trying to get caught up on PBP. Made some head way but no where near
what I'd hoped. Packed up and took the work home with me.
John
picked me up at the office and we went over to the strawberry festival in
Bellevue. Not really much there to do or see but at least we tried
to do something fun.
Left
the festival and went over to the mall. Ended up finally finding the
tea cups we wanted to go with our Japanese kama. Of course there's nothing
traditional about our choice -- we got metal dragon tea cups which are
Chinese, with lotus blossom coaster to got with a Japanese tea kettle but
it look wonderful and since it's just for us who cares. John picked
them up and he miss read the price he didn't see the leading one.
Thought they were two dollars and not 12. Still they are what we
wanted and we're happy.
Wayne and Clarin came over -- It was so
wonderful to see them again. We ate too much and drank too much and
they spent the night. We miss them terribly and will have to plan a
trip out to KC to see them sometime soon.
Had
lunch with a recruiter that is looking to place more people with us.
She seemed like she was competent and I enjoyed talking to her.
We'll see if anything comes of it. On the small world aspect -- the
perm part of her company is the Laurel Group -- the same people who called
me on the DS.com opening.
left
work around 4:00 with a splitting headache. Tried to catch a quick
nap before the writers Group gets here.
SB,
BG and MC came over. We talked about next steps for SB and what my
options might be if I choose to got with the publisher in London.
Basically we all agreed that I would spend the weekend on the 4th doing
some serious soul searching. What was interesting was that MC
offered me a 40 hour a week contract assignment in case I need more time
to write. What a wonderful offer. I think I need to serious
consider it.
KJ
and I met at Purple's to catch up on gossip and unwind. I discussed
with her some of my thoughts about next steps and what was important to me
and she suggested that I was living out my "Mother" archetype at work.
Interestingly enough I don't think she's completely right -- once a
companion (or Heteira) always a companion. What I think might really
be going on is my tour through the role of caregiver/martyr. I've
done orphan, wanderer, warrior, and magician and if one of my life time
requirements is to have experience most things then I'm living out some
missed experiences. With that said we do refer to my role at work as
Dev Mommy.
Was
basically too beat to care much about working. Did what needed to be
done and spent time checking on folks to make sure no one felt ignored.
We were having system problems on the application I was trying to
work on so productivity was gong to be minimal no matter what I did.
Had lunch with CM (talked about dog training) and then wrapped up a few
lose ends. I'd done 44 hours this week by noon so I wasn't really
feeling like a laggard.
Called
my youngest brother to wish him a happy Birthday -- He's 50 today, as
might be expected he's working through the concept of his own mortality.
He wants to become a full time artist. We had a long talk
about how to live life to the greatest advantage. Not sure quite
what to make of the conversation. I may not have my act together but
if I die tomorrow I die secure in the fact that I've contributed to the
great work while I was here and that if I'm called home it is as it should
be.
Helped
the RK move yesterday. More to do then I assumed and it was hot and
I was pretty useless. Luckily everyone else pulled their weight.
The new house is nice and will work out fine.
And
we're going to the zoo... Seems the last time we went was July 31st.
This is pretty unusual for us since we have a season pass and normally go
several times during the year. It was definitely on the warm side and
most of the animals were asleep but we saw three new birds in the arboretum
and the wolf was out prowling around as well as the artic fox.
Went to the carpet store (it will cost over 6k to do the downstairs, the master bedroom and the hall and stairs). Upgraded the padding so we don't need to worry about Clancy misbehaviors.
Went to the book store. Got a new book by Michelle Saguara. It's published by Luna. Don't have time to record all the implications of this but what it really says is I have a small window of time to try and write a fantasy my way. Given all the decisions I have to make right now this is an important piece of data from the universe.
Mercury retrograde in the Seventh house: This is the time to explore new ways of communicating things to others without attachment to exact forms of what is being said. Great for getting new insights into old opportunities and finding new interpretations. Find a way to communicate insights you have about yourself within your relationships, without making too much or too little of those in your past.
Things to do:
- Meet with someone that worked for you in the past. (This will be easy to do -- I'm already planning to meet with TJ next week -- haven't seen him in a couple of years)
- Do things left undone, or neglected, from previous times. (
- Research something
- You may make some major adjustments dealing with your work environment at this time because you are not satisfied emotionally with your business environment.
July 5
After
spending the weekend trying to figure out what to do with
my life I realized the very self evident fact that the
right answer was it was time to start living it.
I've tried this before but until the day I die it's
something that I get a whole lot of chances at -- It was
something John said about how stressed I was becoming
under deadlines. So the answer is I don't know if I
want to write the book on programme management and that
isn't the immediate decision the decision is to live in
the now.