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Third House Journal |
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Third House Journal |
April 11- May 9
1996
Spent this period hard at work on my first conference presentation. The paper we wrote during this period turned out to be turning point in my career.
Asked what the outcome of the paper would be now that we’ve developed the model. Got 50 unchanging
Cosmic Order or the Cauldron - This is a time of readjusting your individual relationship with the cosmos. There are certain areas in life that are fated, and an acceptance of that fate can lead to great personal power. you will begin to perceive what is actually possible for you to achieve and not waste precious time on the impossible.
1998
We had a Celtic wedding in the garden on Beltaine. Things were crazy with my work schedule. I flew in 2 days before the wedding and then flew out Sunday night. We had another reception on the west coast for all the family that couldn't make the east coast wedding.
1999
I spent a lot of this time period completing a magazine article for a professional journal that was due by the end of April.
2000
This year the focus seems to be on cleaning up our immediate environment. We really never got completely moved into our new house so we've spent lots of time getting things organized. I originally would have placed some of that in the fourth house, but I'm now inclined to say that's more decorating or buying furniture or land than cleaning house.
Note: there was a 5 planet stellium this year in my third house
Your close world, the world of your intimate and personal friendships...the world of your family and your connection to them comes under the powerful influence of the stellium of planets in Taurus. Communications, messages, interactions and the most mundane of exchanges are all growing fields that allow you to take control of your life, your thoughts and your ability to create a world of your dreams. Pay attention to how you get your points across...to how you represent your dreams and your beliefs with your speech.
Talk and talk some more about where you want to take your life. Every word you speak and every effort you make at believing in your dreams will take you closer and closer to realizing them.
Wednesday, May 03, 2000
Just had a dream last night where someone was repainting my bedroom. It seemed that in the dream I had fabulous murals of gold-rush towns painted on the wall but the background color surrounding them was a light burgundy. The painters where painting around the murals in a deep gold. The wall behind my bed was also to be repainted but in an emerald green. There were little pieces of wallpaper that some one had used to cover the window frame and I stood there wondering what the painters were going to do with them, patch them? Remove them? They were unnecessary, peeling and didn't fit and yet part of me felt they should be repaired and/or just covered up. end of dream
2001
Got another article due, but I've published a lot in the last few years so it's less of a unique event. I also find that we're once again focused on cleaning up our immediate environment but that's because we've moved for the second time in a row and after 3 1/2 months I've found that the frustration with being scattered becomes an urgent issue.
Meditation - April 20, 2001
When I took back the 4th cup (in a prior meditation) I sincerely hoped I was going to be able to avoid going through the 5 of cups. I don’t like pain. I don’t like loss; but of course it didn’t happen that way. I’ve also been somewhat dreading living through a five year. The "lesson and opportunity" cards of a five year are all universally unpleasant.
The imagery of the 5 of cups is interesting. A man stands looking at three spilled cups or three cups floating away and who doesn’t see the two cups still standing. I’ve spent the last two years watching my three cups get spilled, stomped on and generally folded and mutilated and have felt powerless to do anything about it. Of course there in lay the secret; the teaching of the 5 of cups. The understanding that the three cups were never meant to be held onto. That the two cups rest secure and the others signify nothing.
I took a quick trip up the world tree and asked Heimdall exactly how I was suppose to navigate around the Upper World. All my journeys in the past had been over his bridge and while I knew there were other places to go I had never accessed them through the world tree. His advice was unbelievably simple. Before I start my journey up, simply know where I wished to go. The World tree would handle the rest.
2002
This third house seems to be shaping up to be focused on local travel and again on writing and communication. We have a local vacation planned and I've got a business trip toward the end of the 3rd house. We did our annual yard maintenance last week so I guess we're ahead of schedule. On the first day of my third house someone approached me about co-authoring a book on a topic I've already started working on. We'll see if anything comes of it. I also just sent in an article and should get a few more ready to go. My goal is to publish 4 a year but I don't always make it.
With the start of my third house on Thursday, the new moon on Friday, and Mercury moving into Taurus on Saturday there seems to be more significance than usual - The emphasis during this third house should be on making my thinking real. A special ritual for today might be moving a live plant into my second floor office. Something with a lot of dirt. I might also consider keeping a small bag of cornmeal in the office and when I have an idea I want to make sure I ground I can offer some cornmeal to the plant.
2003
This has been a strange third house. I think exhaustion has been the ruling principle. I look back at what I wrote above about setting a goal of publishing 4 articles a year, I can laugh at how far off the mark I was. I think I've written and published 15 articles since this time last year.. Though I admit I'm struggling with one that was due today. The first draft is done but it's not polishing up well. I'm now part of a weekly writers group and I'm still asking myself about whether I want to write fiction or non-fiction. The only unique thing I've done this third house is teach a class for a client. We've taken a number of short journeys but again it's nothing unique. I've also been focused on finishing up the house but that started in January. So third house 2003 is going to go down as one of those nothing stands out and I lived through it.
May 3rd
Was getting on a train to somewhere. I was later than I thought and for some reason we had to go through one train to actually reach the train I wanted to be on. People were blocking my way (because they were packed in so tightly) and eventually I got down to the point where I could have gotten off this train to board the other and the way was blocked by people with their wheelchairs strapped in. I’m aware of each second going by and it seems crazy that I have to go through this train to get to the other. Another woman is with me and she’s as stressed as I am. When we reach the wheel chairs I’m simply caught without the strength or agility to leap my way through these people. (the normal kind of dream induced lack of mobility). I push against them and it does look like I’ll make it through but not in time.
The dream shifts and both trains end up pulling into the same station. I get off the train I’m on and find myself pounding on the engineer's window of the train I want to board. No one responds but a compartment door opens several cars back. I look around for the other woman I’m traveling with and I don’t see her. I realize she’s going to end up missing the train, but I’m not sure I can afford to go back and look for her.
2004 - still keeping the more detailed journal
Very strong feeling that one cycle was ending and a new very positive one beginning. Everything ended up failing to happen and we made some choices that we probably shouldn't have made had we known how bad our financial situation would get in the future but this was a good time
This year has a different feel -- There's as much activity as last year (and actually a few paying clients) as well as all the psychological sign posts that things are improving but I'm much less trusting about the events. We won't get our annual vacation this year.