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Fourth House Journal |
May 10- June 1
1998
Busy, crazy time.
We decided to combine our honeymoon with a conference I had to do in London. Hubby is still complaining about how bad the food was. I have to admit in all the times I've been to London this was the worst.
Left London and went to Ireland -- It's funny how things change. When I was in Ireland 18 years ago the food was awful. This time we ate wonderfully and I found the country very changed. We spend most of our time in county Kerry (Southwest) and aside from almost being crushed by tour buses we had a great time
May 26th
Meditation - Journey to the Isle of the Crystal Keep
About a week after I got back from my honeymoon I essentially got fired from the assignment I was on. Long story with a lot of sound and fury signifying nothing, but I felt foolish and put upon.
At least Tina gave me the name of a manager to call in another area so I'm not at risk of setting on the bench. Beggars can't be choosers
1999
Focused on Work. The project is actually going rather well. I can't really be focused on home since I'm away for two weeks and then home for a weekend and then in California for two weeks.
2000
Every year things are different. This year life was so crazy at work I almost don't remember my fourth house. With two exceptions. The first is that "Sacred Well day" was a well observed event in our household this year. We have a fountain outdoors that got cleaned and prettied up and the fountain indoors got the same treatment. We also got a new fish tank set up in the hall. I think both my husband and I both felt it was necessary to stabilize the water element in our home life.
The second factor is that I recently found that I have Mars' Node exactly conjunct my 4th house cusp. "Violence in one form or another seems to be closely associated with the Nodes of Mars." Unfortunately, I have to admit that I spent my early years in a very violent household, and what came up for me during this transit was dealing with some of the effects as they pertain to the Perineum Chakra, as well as what it's like to be a survivor of extreme stress.
2001
Extremely busy time at work. No real time to think about home centered things. Hubby is still working in California, and we've had significant changes in the management team at work. Our new CEO wants to recruit a VP of engineering. It would be great if he'd at least get us candidates who understand building and shipping software.
2002
On the mundane side, two weeks at a client site and then just more work, work and work.. Found this on the web somewhere and it appears to be disturbingly true. Work is the focus of my psychological foundation.
The Fourth House
Exoteric Esoteric Psychological foundation The foundation of the Soul, its anchoring in the present incarnation; the foundation for the building of self consciousness Ending a period of wandering
The customary gift of sacrifice for Thor is 4 loaves of bread.
bread and salt
"And it must be remembered that the habitual use of salt is intimately connected with the advance from nomadic to agricultural life, i.e. with precisely that step in civilization which had most influence on the cults of almost all ancient nations. The gods were worshipped as the givers of kindly fruits of the earth, and, as all over the world, "bread and salt" go together in common use and common phrase, salt was habitually associated with offerings, at least with all offerings which consisted in whole or in part of cereal elements."
2003
Picked up the center piece painting for our living room during this period. It's of two Cranes. My fourth house is a relatively short house so unless I schedule a house project during this time there isn't much that happens. Still painting a few rooms but this project has been going on since Feb so there's not anything new. Took vacation to the wine country. It's important to note that this is the first year in a long time where I was able to focus on 4th house activities during the fourth house. There's been a definite sense of putting down roots this year. The writers group is meeting at my house and I'm building real relationships with local people
2004
Detailed Journal
There wasn't much that seemed to directly relate to the 4th house during this year. Most of the focus has been on work related issues. By extension though the theme has been on how and where we all want to live and how we can form a community to support each other. This year still reflects the roots I put down last year. I'm not alone and I'm not without a community any more. My girlfriend commented for a woman who complains she needs a day job in an office I'm the most connected person she knows.
2005
I am so struck as to how I would write exactly the same words this year as last. The entire time has been dominated with work issues. I'm actually earning some money this year as opposed to last year where it was a lot of work spent in preparation for finding work. Still concentrating on where we NEED to live to find a job.
Reading back through all the prior years what I'm noticing is that when I'm in the fourth house I'm automatically sliding into the tenth house. What this tells me is that where my home is at work. I'm not quite sure what I want to do with this realization. Digging into a little more I found this quote concept --
If the tightest aspect is the square of Uranus, from the sixth house to Neptune in the ninth house, there is a demand for individual expression and change (Uranus) to achieve and maintain the necessary resources. This can stimulate and propel forward spiritual and social philosophy (Neptune) The applying planet’s effort is first and then the separating planet’s activity can be encouraged and achieved.
Interesting that its taken me all of these years to understand which astrological aspects drives me. I approach everything based on what is RIGHT. Right of course doesn't mean conventional and it doesn't mean easy, but it means for the highest and best good of all at that moment according to my understanding of it. I bring that attitude into the work place and some people appreciate it and some find me a royal pain in the ass. The conventional interpretation of this is that I worship at the altar of the goddess of sovereignty. This is Athena in my lexicon but it can be any other goddess.
