7th House Journal

July 18- - Sept 3

 

1965 -

Flew back east to go to the world's fair. 

 

1975

Got Married at college.  Small wedding informal but nice.

1983

Took a journal workshop in Santa Cruz.  It was a life changing event.

Promoted to a more senior management position

1992

My one and only femme fatale period.  Dating three men all at the same time and knowing that everyone of them, while charming, certainly wasn't Mr. Right.  Since I was essentially a child bride, I guess I'm just making up for normal life experiences that everyone else has a little earlier.  I've actually never casually dated before.  Not sure I really have much use for it but I guess you have to try something before you can know what it's all about.

1993

Quite a different period than '92.  Back to my normal patterns -- A number of good friends, several of them men and we're all traveling some where to an unknown future.  All of us know that our lives right now are transitory and incomplete but we don't know where the future lies and who we will spend it with.

 

1998

I'm currently moving back and forth between West Virginia and California.  I'm very busy but in some ways everything is make work. I'm responsible for putting the training plan together for the client.  The training group only cares that I should sell the client lots of training.  The clients training coordinator seems rather spacey and I'm not sure what she cares about and I'm just writing a really nice paper on adult learning. 

In California its sort of the same thing.  The client wants to build a computer system that no one really wants or needs. 

July 15, 1998
Questions:  What's going on in my life right now

Obviously nothing is working out the way I'd hoped when I joined O.  The question is what's the next step.  Is something going to change that will make this all worth while.

August 05
 Hexagram 3 moving to 51

1999

Attunement

I express the power, potential and gifts of my Seventh House. I am facing west and seeing what which my outer consciousness is transmitting to my inner consciousness.  

I am fulfilled by the dynamic dance of energies flowing between myself and another, between the parts of myself that I identify with and the parts that seem separate.  We balance and create

2000

Wednesday, July 19, 2000

Long dream,

Begins at a very large house.  We’ve all met for a party.  Seems that the house might have been Dorothy’s at one time but it isn’t clear.  Tom and Anne and Kathy are all there as well as some people from work.  I decide I need to use the bathroom and try one of them.  Beth is just walking out and the toilet is over flowing with both excrement and vomit.  I go in search of another bathroom.  I’m upstairs in what I seem to think is Ken’s room and for some reason the bathroom still isn’t available or I’m interrupted.  I end up walking around with a very dry plug of excrement halfway expelled from my body.  I know I should be ashamed and horrified but basically I feel better at least getting part of it out of my system.

Still at the party I’m talking to Kathy’s mother.  The discussion is around the fact that Kathy’s always been in love with Tom and that she hopes now that something may actually work out between the two of them,  I find the tiniest part of me jealous to admit that someone else might actually occupy the role in his life that he has in mine but then I push the thought aside.  The party moves to a restaurant  by a lake.  It’s a much smaller group now;  just the 5 of us, (Jill L. has joined us) .  We make the decision it’s time to leave and I instantly find myself in the car with TWIM and we’re driving home.  I say to him we can’t leave without saying good-bye or without making sure that everyone has a ride home.

The dream shifts and we’re know on the north side of the lake at Kathy’s office (a sea of cubicles).  Again I seem to have trouble getting the dream to cooperate with a formal leave taking so I finally give up and end the dream.

Instant comments

Beth has resigned and I’ve made the decision to leave.

Note -- Thinking back on Beth I should say she was from consulting and a completely nice young woman.  We were little more than passing acquaintances but what was important to me was that she came to me and told me she thought the environment was crazy and that she felt that she would never be able to accomplish anything meaningful with the way LJ ran the department.  This hit me like a two by four to the head.  Up until this point I kept thinking it was all my fault that things weren't working.  What Beth told me was no it wasn't. 

Thursday, July 27, 2000

Only a snippet.  I’m with Connie and for some reason pieces of jewelry have been put into a series of ovens out in the yard. We go on about our business and remember the jewelry at the end and come out to find it somewhat burnt.  My owl pendant cleans up fine but I had other pieces (the sun and some other little trinket) that seem to be somewhat worse for wear.  I ask Connie about them and she tells me they won’t clean up but it shouldn’t matter, they’re just dime store trinkets anyway.

2001

Kris and Bob joined us for a cruise to alaska. 

Once we got off the boat we headed to Denali national park and took a small plane up to the glacier.

 

2003

8/28/03

The tower - Drew the card as a meditation device and found this quote on the web.  Very interesting insight.

“You could be the Speaker (the heirophant), whose words are lightning bolts, causing the ground of belief to crack and erupt. But only a few are charismatic enough, an acknowledged destroyer of the previous Age of the Thinker . “

The Thinker is our enemy, an obstacle, sitting entranced by the reductionist worldview, his mind enchaining both men and women. He's "up a tree." His doctrines are cold and heartless. Indeed, the heart of mankind has been plucked out and hangs neglected from the tree. The Thinker was the Devil card in the old tarot. Neither are truly evil, only misguided.

If we wish to change the world, we need the proper tools. They are spread out on a cloth of gold before the Changer of the world (the magician). This is a much less extroverted role than the Speaker, yet the Changer is on top of the world, taming governments without losing his purity. The Changer appears humble, dressed as a shepherd or a hermit, yet his power is great.

 

2004 - Detailed Journal

2005 - Detailed Journal

2006