Journey to Bui

 

Reading the journeys of others doesn't tell you what to do on your own journeys.  I have included this only because I think it shows an aspect of relating to the otherworld that is not often discussed.  In the journey below you'll find an interweaving between issues in the otherworld and issues in the real world.  If you read between the lines you'll see hints of how life between the two worlds can be structured without losing your way in either. 

The otherworld can offer us a language to grapple with nebulous feelings that seem to elude classification and confrontation in the real world.  In this journey I have chosen to explore what I should do next with my career and my life.  What I discovered was that I was being torn apart by my desire to fulfill the expectations of others as I conceived them to be.  During a stressful time in my life I had transformed myself almost into another person in a blind attempt to meet the needs of another.  15 years later I find myself still trying to put that Genie back in the bottle, even though the relationship and the needs that drove it are long since gone.  I have chosen to wrap words around this situation (oversoul bleed through) which give it a conventional "new age" tone only in the hope of better communicating the situation.  In the Land of Magh Ildathach (the many colored land of the wind), words are everything.

If you read this journey, my hope is that you will come away with the knowledge that there are helpers for you to work with in the otherworld and that they truly can offer insight and guidance in a manner that conventional psychotherapy can't because they limit their language.

January 2, 2002

The land of Bui is very much like Nglas.  Primarily pastoral with frequent areas of heavily wooded groves and ringed by a range of mountains.  When I had studied the teachings of Bui, in the past the section of the land I visited the most often might be best described as a small resort area nestled in the foothills. 

"Freya, it's been so long since you've come to see us.  I was rather afraid we'd lost you."  Manton looked wonderful as always.  Immaculately dressed in pale yellow pants and wearing a richly woven cloth of a deeper yellow.  His thick head of white hair was still as luxuriant as ever. 

"I think you did lose me after a fashion.  When I realized I'd never reach the Masters level here I chose to move on to other things.  So now I'm back because I think I need guidance, and where better to come that here?"

"Then we taught you well.  You are willing to admit that all healers are wounded and their wound is both their strength and their cross."

"Well I've got the cross part of this down very well right now."

"Would you like to go into my office and talk or walk around the ground while we talk?"  Manton

"I don't have much time now.   Is there still a session room and office I might use?  I think I need to write things down and then ask your help in talking through the black and whites as best I can delineate them.  I feel like I'm wondering in the land of Liath and I'm rather tired of being lost."

"I've got a better suggestion.  Let Anna take you to a room so that you can rest.  In the morning we'll first see if we need to go to Liath and retrieve something or if we just need to blow the cobwebs away.  After all you've been bouncing around Magh Ildathach at a rate that would tire out even those of us who live here ."

Typical air behavior, I think to myself.  Of course Manton's right.  I've done about all I can do for one day and the problem I'm wrestling with,  as in what to do with the rest of my life, won't exactly get solved in one 5 minute trip to the upperworld of air.  "Thank you, Manton, but I think I'll decline.  I try to do my sleeping in my own bed, whether in here or in my own world. I'll be back and I'll definitely take you up on your walk around the grounds"

Meeting the Disirs in the Land of Nglas

Journey to Bui - Part Two