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Journey to Bui Part 2 |
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Journey to Bui Part 2 |
Thursday, January 03, 2002
"Manton, I'll take that walk around the grounds now if you don't mind. Is Evangeline right? Do I have oversoul bleed through?" Having just come from Nglas I was interested in getting his opinion.
"60% of the cases spontaneously re-integrate when the stress is removed. 30% of the cases are like you, no real harm and some degree of positive co-existence and only 10% of the cases are in need of serious intervention because they've lost the structure of their personality. We actually did as much as we could. You can't do an exorcism on the oversoul. After all it is a valid piece of every person."
I slipped my arm through Manton's and sighed with relief. "Panic and anxiety really are air traits, aren't they?" I said with a wry tone in my voice.
He reached across with his other hand and patted my arm. "You realize the fact that we can have this conversation means we're very close to a solution. Cardea has been dropping so many hints I thought one of them would have to get through. All that emphasis on applying purple, and hints to wear purple, and the purple remedies. You did try, but look at the amount of distortion that got in the way."
Again on this journey I am being given a teaching that is almost as important as the discussion of my personal problem. Everything written on purple didn't help me see that what purple represented for me. The answer isn't always in the archetypal, sometimes it's in the personal. "But Manton, I'm not sure that all of Cardea's hints didn't work. I've stayed focused. I've nibbled around the edges. I've been assembling the puzzle pieces as diligently as I can"
"And that's why you are always welcome here. Everyone here appreciates your commitment to the journey So it took close to two years, who's counting."
The first rule of Magh Ildathach is if you can't stand having your nose tweaked verbally stay out of the place. "Not to defend myself but Edith F. always told me that her patients got better when they got better. So I at least am grateful that it wasn't more than two years"
"Edith is a wise woman which is why we made sure you had the opportunity to study with her. And you're right, it could have been longer. So now you, have chosen to pursue the purple have you?"
"No, I've chosen to pursue my key, from Dubh. If I obtain my key I automatically obtain the purple. I walk the path of knowledge, not of power."
"So that's why our hints didn't make sense sooner. If you'd chosen to walk the path of power, Vivienne would never have been willing to leave."
"But might she have chosen to re-integrate? If I'd made a decision that might have moved my life in a direction that attracted her interests?"
"Conventional re-integration isn't possible after this long a time. But it doesn't matter. You have always been destined either for the purple or for the black."
I find myself unable to suppress a scoffing sound. "The purple maybe but the black never. In many ways the black takes more raw power than the purple will ever take. I'm simply not that good and my personality doesn't suit me to that pursuit. Remember I spent 10 years of my life learning from a woman who had mastered the black on the earthly plain. .... And who intended me to follow in her footsteps....." I turned to face Manton in complete surprise. Even though I just denied any interest in the black, everything I've done up to the point, everything I've said implied that I was going to chose the black eventually in order to be her spiritual successor and yet here I was saying, I was going to take the purple and not the black
"I think her physcial death has left you feeling some pressure to chose."
"But I've chosen. Have I dishonored her, by making my choice? Have I proven to be a poor student. A disciple who's chosen to turn her back on the teachings of the master?" Too many things are coming up on this journey. In normal excessive air style I'm not dealing with one issue but a lifetime of inter-related topics.
"You'll need to journey to Cron to work much of this out with her directly, but no I don't think she'll be unhappy with you. You know the secret of the North wind. Boreas in your world is cold, stark and powerful. Faccina, on the other hand is the wind that is devoid extensive power. Faccina is the path of small actions, of pulling one single thread in the fabric of reality."
"And changing more than any thing else could ever change" I interrupted. "The surface teachings of the black are for the novice and the uninitiated. It serves to hide from the masses where the true power lies, especially since it is a power that is almost never available to the young."
"And so you will tell the world what others have not?"
"I could shout it from the roof tops and it wouldn't make a difference. I would guess that only about 1/10th of 1% of the population even has a chance of apprenticing to the black, and that percentage goes down as population increases. Besides who am I to try and explain that Black magic isn't really a euphemism for the dark side of the spiritual force. That it is black because it is the concentration of all colors into a powerful whole. The dark side exists in the shadows, in the gray lands where there is still enough light to see good from evil. With the black the power that exists is beyond those designations which is why very little action is ever taken."
"The black really is open to you if you want it. Before you pass beyond the earthly plain, the ladies would accept you within their ranks."
"If the God/dess wishes it, is will be. For now though it is not the path I chose to walk. So where do I go from here?"
"To Cron to honor she who has passed beyond your earthly plane, to Dub and the Ladies with Vivienne, and then back to Evangeline and Molly to start getting on with the rest of your life. Promise me one thing though. Stop back more often. If you want to keep that yellow butterfly you so prominently display in your hair, then you'll need to keep up with your continuing education units."
"I think I need to keep up a lot of continuing education units, Manton. Thank you for all of your help.