Visit to Athena - part 2

May 28, 2005

It's been a year since I last visited Athena in the conference room, and I don't know what to think.  I've definitely done things that I didn't want to do.  I've done them in spades.  I've done real sales and worked on accounts that I normally would have turned down and I've earned very little money doing it.

I keep asking Athena why and the answer is always that I needed to learn everything I've learned to do what I need to do next.  I'm not sure I like that answer.

In frustration I decided to actually visit the temple.  Like most Goddess she has many of them but the one that I have used the most over the years is in Dubh.  The temple is different from a modern day church.  You enter into a large center rotunda with a statue of Athena.  The auditorium is to the left and classroom and an meditation rooms are to the right.  I've always joked that I expect one day to come in and see a holographic image of Athena instead of the statue, but as of this trip it hasn't happened yet.   Upon entering I turned to the right and entered one of the small meditation rooms.  Each room had a chaise lounge and a small table.  I sat down and  pulled my eyeshades out of my purse.  Taking off my glasses, I laid down and placed the eyeshades over my closed eyes.

"Athena, I need some answers -- A year has come and gone and I've gotten no where."

"You have quite a knack for asking the question only minutes before the answer is due to arrive.  I have told you -- there were things you needed to learn and that you will next be called upon to use them.  What's not clear about that?"

"What's not clear is that I don't want to do anything that would cause me to use these skills.  I don't like the kind of work I've been doing.  I'd say I was made for better things but I'm afraid that's only wishful thinking."

"Are you refusing to go where I've chosen to send you?"

"And what would it signify if I did?  You'd still send me and I'd still go. "

"True."  I could see her face in my mind and there was a small smile on her face.  "I'm sorry this is so hard.  I would make it easier but that is in your hands not mine.  If you just trust more and worry less life would go easier."

"So you aren't going to tell me anything are you?" I said.

"The next step is coming very shortly -- you can be patient for a few more weeks."